what i saw

Here I am this is me, there’s nowhere else on earth I’d rather there.
It’s a new day, it’s a new start .It’s a life with the beating of a young heart …. Thunk! Darn the battery !- campus 3 to KP-2(in case you have’nt figured wht it is-that’s my hostel ), a trip which I have made over a million times by now, seems to be a 100mile marathon every time classes get over and this time it’s not getting any better rather, after slogging through 4 terrible, treacherous, torchereous, tormentous hours of “PPT” it’s getting worse and now the battery of my MP3 player is down too.
Twenty five minutes,a cigaratte,a coke and a veg. patty later I arrived at the hostel gate, only to be greeted by a bunch of blue shirted piegons gossiping and chirping under the tree that we have at the gates of our palace and I utter to myself “God save them! for one day; they shall die of self pity.” Someone calls out my name from inside,"Rohan where the F*** had you been, I have tried your cell a million times.” That does it!, my dreams of getting back to bed shattered. “Harsh” and “Baady” come galloping out of our palace and the next minute the three of us are headed to our “daily ka adda”.
The genius amongst us starts the discussion on our way to the “adda” ,where our evenings have found shelter. He utters the “P”word, the word, the word spoken the maximum no. of times inside KiiT campus.
The tone is complaining and full of pain. This guy, I must say is very good at current affairs as he has the complete updated details of whatever happened when Bill Gate's company was here in our institute for recruitment.
For the next one hour and half, the three of us were busy planning strategies to get ourselves on board Microsoft. Somewhere at the back of my mind, a shrill voice out of nowhere said, " Dude,The race has begun.”
Back at the hostel, I notice significant changes on my floor. Topic of discussion of the different “Khatti” groups has changed, a transition from female sector to IT and ITES sector, from girls in different departments to departments in IT giants like Google,MS,Oracle etc. No more could I see boys loitering around sitting aimlessly in front of their laptops and chatting, instead they were busy solving aptitude papers.Our beloved “Khatti Session” had been rechristened as “Group Discussion“ with topics heavier than sumo wrestlers.
Come December and the scenario changes like it has now, I guess. Too many things are on my mind question like “Will I get placed?” I try to answer but then what if I don’t? Nothing can satisfy a confused mind. Confused is what I’ve become and I guess it happens with everybody.
A fear that finds a place in everybody’s heart but one needs to get over it. Peers indeed put a lot of pressure and we have to learn to get over it. This is one period where I feel, we learn to resist temptations and get control over the 1500 cc brain that we have - 'cuz if we don't it has got enough torque to spin you around a million times .

Here I am lying on my bed, with a crusade of thoughts going on in my mind. But that’s life.
“ Life during 6th semester @KiiT”

Reflections of a hostel boarder

9th February,2007 6:48 pm .. what a nice time to start writing something..

3 minutes later....

It was not a good time after all as nothing is coming to my mind.It is a complete void. Lying down on a friend's bed i wonder what an ideal day for an upcoming engineer would be like? What sort of a time table or a routine should he have? and suddenly... Routine! Time Table! what crap? It has been three years and i am not able to single out a day which could be identical to another.. Routines and Time Tables have long been forgotten and am in no mood to start following them again. School to Professional School has been a strange transformation, for me and other people as well.Those who came with thick glasses, now sport contact lenses, Short hair is now 'Uncool', as they say, Long locks are in.. and the list goes on and on.My girlfriend, from school, refuses to recognise me. Mumma says, i look as if i have come from hell, but seriously hell is too small a word, she adds.
Sun rises at 10:20am(classes start @ 10:30am) and sets at around 4:00 am. This is probably the only definite time that i can give. Classes get over anytime i wish(i.e if i chose to get thrown out the class by really messing with the faculty). Day starts with the worst possible beakfast and the worst possible lunch & dinner somewhere in between.Nocturnal is what i have become. Rate of fun/Work increases as the night grows darker.
Still on his bed i reminicise of my first day in the hostel, i had come at around 2 in the after noon and was surrounded by complete strangers. My father had dropped me at the hostel gate and "Find your own way out now.." were the words with which he bade me farewell. Amidst total strangers and their parents who were even more strange, it was a herculean task to keep my cool. At that point of time i felt like running back home..i wanted to escape!!! but 3 years from then, i think i have changed.
All these years i have been seeing so many things.. so many people becoming friends and then unbecoming, so many new relations budding and then withering away, so many people changing.. i guess CHANGE is inevitable. Coming to hostel has probably been the best thing i have ever done, it , in a way, has prepared me for what i am to face in the future. Coming face to face to some of the blunt and harsh truths, i have fallen head first many times and everytime learnt a new lesson. Life is all about giving you lessons and lessons which are worth taking. It is no more school going children that you need to deal with but with so called matured men ( maturity which at times is not there). Innocence has no value, if you are innocent you are weak and shall be trodden down. It is a world, a world full of lots of people and to face them, i guess, one has to change, change not only superficially but from within.
When i was at home, Dad used to say,"It's a dirty world out there,Son", and in 3 years of staying in the wild,i have started to get a taste of it already, as transformation in life has begun.